To Be or Not To Be...

Wah quite sometimes gak tak tulis pape in the blog. Totally bz handling the house chores n also works that need to be done in the office. I'm totally lost today at the office .. dun't know what is in my head.. i dun't like the feeling at all.. this is what I've been mention during the bonding session with my coach last 2 weeks.. Sometimes, i do need some that can remind me or in another word is ... make me awake!  hehe kan dah merapu...

I've just mop the house half n hour ago before start to online... and i plan to clean up my kitchen.. i.e basuh apa2 yg ada dlm sinki and thinking of lipat baju... iron baju for next week... and at the same time wanna read the material that i brought back from the office which I am suppose to complete the task by end of this week? Sunday maybe? huhuh alangkah bagus if masa tu more than 24 hours perday...  I felt guilty to my kids..  :( 
If i culd be supermom and at the same time be a successful career woman.. dat will be nice!  But in this real world .. i think it is impossible ...hermmm tak tau lah awat diriku membebel tonite.. maybe i juz me my other half who's totally away from me n the kids.. can't wait for him to come back nxt week.. I really salute to those ladies out there who has been in a long distance relationship with their partner.
In my case i think i shuld be thankful coz my other half is just away for 2 weeks offshore and 2 weeks holidays.. :)
Ayah... three of us miz u so much.....

abg Iman

Haris dlm walker...

New Year di Rawang

Wah sangat malas esk utk berkerja setelah bercuti 4 hari ok since hari khamis lepas till today. I have to take AL on last thursday because Kak Zura need to settle all her daughter's school fees.. Sort of cuti2 bersama2 anak2. We decided to balik kg which is located at Rawang.. hehe my Dad's house. Before heading to Rawang dropped by at my sis's place jap.. hermm almost 2 hours gak kehkehekeh... helping her buying ameda breastpump online thru Fabulous Mom's site. Then lepak2 for a while because my cousin Ida pun ada.. after solat Zuhur terus bertolak ke Rawang...

15 minit pertama... Haris dengan jaya nya menangis.. hhuhuhu.. tp lepas tu senyap.. while Iman baring kat seat blakang.. huhu sepatutnya should pakaikan talipinggan keledar tp kesian plak sbb dia nak tido baring... berdoa2 jugaklah sepanjang perjalanana agar permudahkan perjalan ke rumah Tok Papa hari tu...

All of us stayed at Tok Papa's house till saturday.. Lepak2 kat umah papa ..n me sempat gak mengurut.. last pantang hari tu tak sempat nak buat penutup.. hehheh not badan jugak lah nenek mun urut.. segar rasa badan.. Haris pun kena urut sikit ..rupenya.. his shoulder tersalah urat sikit kot.. nsb baik g mengurut .. kejap je pun nenek mun urut haris.. nenek pun told me.. baby urut kejap je.. tak leh lama2 mcm kita org dewasa..  :)

Hari ni dok umah jer.. tak g mana2... eventhough tak g mana.. still tak dapat kemas kan rumah 100%. Haris tak leh letak kat bawah.. asyik nagging.. huhu maybe asyik berkepit with me for almost 3 days ehh masuk hari 4 hari.. so tak mau pisah.. huhuh mcmana lah gamaknya esk ngan kak zura.. puas lah nak memujuk nanti esk.. huhu..

Here some latest pics of Haris & Iman that i took using my hp.. mungkin tak clear sangat..  :) cheers!!

Haris is wearing CD dari lunatot.. :)

Gmbr hari ni sblm demam.. huhuhu

Pengorbanan

Tonite me & kids will be sending hubby to Putrajaya ERL.. Hubby won't be with us for another 2 weeks.. tak pa lah.. dah kerja kan. 2 minggu yang lepas mmg pack our family xtvty. Hubby balik jer dari offshore on last two wednesday kami semua balik my hubby hometown kat Marang on the next day. G jeguk mak kat kampung. Spent almost 4 days jugak lah. Seronok Iman balik kampung sbb dapat jumpe his Ayah Su aka my lil brother in law. Habis rumah nenek dipusingnya... Perjalanan balik ke kampung hari tu took us almost 8 hours.. gara2 travel disiang hari. Iman muntah banyak kali. Most probably he had to sit in front kot. Yer lah kat belakang ada car seat Haris so tak leh nak turun kan passanger seat yg kat depan. He had to sleep menegak. Banyak kali muntah dibuat nya..  Nothing much we do kat kampung. Mmg xtvity melepak kat rumah. Sempat lah jugak g membeli kain batik sutera kat pasar payang. Hhehe.. normally we will go to stesen bas kat bandar to buy sutera tp this time me wanna buy kat pasar payang. Dapat lah  cekau 2 pasang mempow hubby terchenta. hhee.. thank you ayah for the present! hehehe... Rasa best plak berehat2 kat kampung.. almaklumlah dok kat bandar kan.. kekadang stress gak.

                                              Iman with nenek & haris kat pasar payang...

                                                                  Kat Pantai

Iman, Haris, Ayah Su & Nenek

Balik dari kampung jer spent 2 days kat Impiana KLCC sbb hubby ada course. So kami tido lah di hotel. Iman on the 1st day membuat onar dengan jayanya di dlm bilik while hubby attending the course. Mengamuk dlm bilik sbb bosan. Hermm puas memujuknya. Nsb baik on the next day nya dah boleh terima hakikat that Hubby went to attend the course. Sempat lah jugak g Pavilion jejln. hehhee..

KLCC

Then for the rest of weeks kiteorg just lepak2 jer kat rumah. Hubby buzy to settle hal2 rumah and also hal2 kereta. My kelisa dah tukar dah getah dekat pintu..so hopefully tak lah dengar bunyi angin berdesup2(betul ke perkataan ni??) bila bawa keta. Hehehe... Hubby tot nak send his car utk cat. But cancelled.. will be sending his car lagi dua minggu, balik dari offshore nanti.

Semalam the lil one, Haris telah membuat experiment dengan tidak menido kan diri seharian. He just take a nap kejap jer. Asyik nak pegang jer.. Serius tak leh wat keje lain langsung. Cuba menguji kesabaran Ibu yer Haris. Ibu tak kesah tp.. habis semua kerja rumah Ibu tak boleh buat, asyik pegang Haris jer. The result of his experiment yesterday cause him tido dengan jaya nya hari ni. He has been asleep dari kul 10am till now, almost 1pm. Huhuh.. kepenatan ya anak ibu.

Si abang, Iman g swimming pool ngan hubby. Betul2 menghabis kan masa yang ada hari ni with his beloved dad sebelum ayah g offhore ya Iman. Hermm.. minggu ni jugak the last week me cuti masa hubby offday. Nxt trip hubby balik, me dah start keje.. huhuh tak best plak. Eventhou hubby pergi meninggalkan kami selama 2 minggu ke offshore, tp dapat spend two weeks solid with hubby. Hermm not bad jugak lah kan.. Tak pe, semua ni untuk cari rezeki untuk anak2 jugak kan... Insya allah Ibu will try to take care both of u sebaik2nya ya Iman & Haris while ayah mencari rezeki kat laut. :)

Iman was locked in his room

Pagi tadi berlakulah insiden yg memang menakutkan bagi ibu2 dan ayah2. Iman terkunci dalam his own room. Pergh.. memang agak mengelabah jugaklah lah kan.. Bila pintu bilik tertutup jer I heard Iman tekan the kunci.. Then apa yg ditakuti terjadi.. Pintu mmg dah terkunci.. I asked him to pusing2 kan tombol pintu incase boleh terbukak balik.. then he started to cried and cakap Ibu tak boleh bukak pintu.. and started to scream. My reaction during that time .. ok calm down.. i thought that i kept all the kunci rumah dlm my drawer kat dalam bilik.. then i rushed to myroom and checked.. tak da.. Ok .... still dalam mood tenang walaupun Iman dah start menangis and keep on cakap 'Ibu bukak lah pintu ni.. '. I rushed to the other room.. hari tu me & hubby ada wat housekeeping sikit and i thought that all the kunci ada kat dalam box kat dlm the other room. Godek2 all the boxes.. tak da.. Ok.. me started to panic a bit. Datang plak idea to amik kad and tried to swipe the card dekat pintu.. ok... mcm hopeless jer.. At the same time me keep on asking Iman to pusing2 kan tombol pintu mana tau terbukak ke pintu. Still tak bley jugak. Then terus kal hubby kat offshore.. nsb baik he picked up the phone. I asked him kat mana all the kunci rumah.. and he said it's inside Iman's room.. waa.. terkejut gue kejap. Hubby asked me to call Abg Mie, Kak Zura's husband for help. Btw, Kak Zura is our pengasuh.. At the same time me keep on asking Iman to try pusing2 the tombol and tetiba terdengar bunyi yg mmg dinantikan.. pintu dah tak terkunci.. me terus buka pintu and peluk him. Rasa lega gila... and i told him not to tekan the kunci ever again if pintu bilik tertutup... Huhuh.. dat's the most pengalaman yg agak mengerikan for me as a mom... I'll be more carefull nxt time to watch my children after this..

My Iman Irfan

Malam ni sesi melayan cerita seram kat tv. Me, Iman & Yana dok melayan cerita Tower 13. Berani betul my son sorang ni.  Kami, Me &Yana puas ckp kat Iman malam ni ada cerita Hantu to avoid him to play Geng Pengembaraan Bermula untuk kali ke berapa tah..  Iman bila dengar jer cerita Hantu mmg excited sikit. Yana taught him to tutup muka dengan bantal kalau takut. Bila tiba part2 yg I think he should not watch it or part yg Iman rasa a bit takut, i ask him to cover his face with bantal. Bila dah cover his face dengan bantal, ayat yg paling best sekali keluar from his mouth ... 'Ibu, Iman tak nampak'..

Nak tergelak Me & Yana kejap. Yer lah.. dah lah part2 yg seram sikit tu mmg Iman cakap dia takut, tp still nak tgk gak. I don't mind if he wants to watch horror movie but with my supervision ar. Bila ada part2 yg I think not suitable for him to watch me cover his face with bantal.. hehe punya lah marah Iman sbb tak nampak wat they showed on tv.

Cepat betul masa berlalu.. tak sangka Iman dah 2 tahun 6 bulan. Me rasa mcm dah besar sangat Iman. He is such an adorable son... really. He is very talkative tak hengat nye.. Cakap macam budah 4 tahun.. padahal baru jer 2 tahun lebih. Sometimes tak terlayan dengan soalan2 cepumas from him.
Since dah dapat Haris ni, I'm trying my best to entertain Iman too.. Quite a tough job jugak lah. Pagi2 Iman will go to rumah Kak Zura. Yana will send him sekali terus g office. I will wake him up around 0630 and pujuk him to go to rumah Kak Zura. Spend a little time with him by hugging him and chat with him untuk kasi mood baik ke rumah Kak Zura. Then , bila petang if Haris tido I try my best to play and talk to Iman. Kak Zura told me that when she asked Iman, mana ibu. Ayat yg keluar dari Iman, Ibu dengan Haris...
Huhuh. that's why bila time Haris tido jer mmg i'll grap the opportunity untuk play with Iman and talk to him...

Dengan my Hubby plak 2 weeks offshore 2 weeks off, mmg agak terasa lah jugak Iman rasanya because normally his ayah lah yang akan bergurau secara 'ganas'..  Tak per.. nxt week my hubby will be off for 2 weeks.. So masa untuk meluangkan masa satu keluarga.. btw me will be 35 days by the time hubby back. So bley lah keluar jejalan.. hehhe.. :)

To my dearest Iman, Ibu loves you so much! :)

2 weeks alreadi..

Sudah genap dua minggu already my lil Haris. Hehe.. Mcm tak percaya plak ek.. Hari ni hari last mak and all my inlaws kat kl. Flite diaorg balik ke KT malam ni.. Sunyi plak rumah nampaknya... Will tinggal Me,Hubby, Iman and Haris jer lah...
Si Haris tgh tido skrg ni... keletihan kot.. tido dlm playpan tak nyenyak..tido atas katil dlm bilik tak berbunyi langsung.. hehhe.

Everybody out to Alamanda after beraya kat rumah Kak Zura pg tadi. Hari terakhir bw mak g jejalan... Tinggal me and lil Haris kat rumah.. Tgh fikir nak masak ape hari ni for me.. hehe .. ingat nak wat ikan bilis +lada hitam jer.. hahha simple n ez.. which sebenarnya kinda of malas ..harhahr and tak de sgt bahan mentah kat rumah.

I've already asked kak zura masakkan me lauk ketika dalam pantang ni.. bukanya ape.. i have my own mission dlm pantang ni.. to fully breastfeed Haris... nak wat stock susu banyak2. So, kalau ada bahan basah banyak2 kat rumah mane nak letak all the stock kan? My fridge bukannya besar sgat pun.. This time mmg nak fully breastfeed Haris smpi 6 bulan and continue to bg smpi 2 taun mcm Iman. Kesian kat Iman sbb ms BB dah campur ngan formula.. almaklumlah anak pertama kan.. ilmu pasal breastfeedin ni kurang sikit... Tp Allhamdulillah dpt susu kan Iman smpi 2 taun wpun campur ngan susu formula. Malam mmg totally breastfeedin lah... And nak putus susu pun senang jer.. maybe ms tu Iman dah tau kot Ibu dia dok mengandungkan adik dia time tu..terus putus susu..

Smlm ada gak husha2 freezer dari mistral kat internet.. huk huk huk konon2nya kalau stock susu banyak giler.. ingat nak lah carik freezer satu utk stock susu ni... but the price was perghh RM800++ itu pun baca dlm some blog ada yg kate managed to get arouond RM600++ for the same model. Hermm kalau mmg stock susu banyak gile, ada gak plan nak get the feezer but the problem is... my rumah terlalu lah 'besar'giler kan.. dok atas langit ni... bukannye atas tanah. huhuhu...


Ok lah.. me nak g masuk dapur.. nak g wat ape2 yg patut.. giler perut lapa tak ingat ni.. tak lunch lagi.. huk huk huk....

Our New Family Members

Still not to late to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends... :)
Wanted to wish welcome to our new family members.. Haris Irfan Mohd Syukri.. My son was born on 911.. :) 11 sept 2009 @ 6.53pm @ Ampang Puteri Specialist Hospital.. He was supposedly born on 22 Sept 09 but he was born 2 weeks earlier.. The most shocking thing is his weight was 3.98kg when entered to this world. Hik hik hik hik.. I can't believed myself too ..giving birth to almost 4kg baby ok.. Allhamdulillah... semuanya dipermudahkan olehNya..

Berpantang at my own house jer.. Raya pun di rumah jer.. But still happening because my mother in law and all my in laws semuanya turun KL.. My MIL turun utk tgk her 2nd cucu.. :) even my bro in law yg kat Labuan pun turun KL .. :)

Ok lah... tak tau nak tulis ape lagi.. will up date lagi yer.. :)

Here some pics of Haris..

Hari Sabtu di Rumah

Hari ni just lepak2 at home dgn Iman.. Actually thinking of going out tapi.. memandangkan perut ku ni.. huhuh tak jadi lah.. karang terkejar2 plak Iman nanti...
Next week will be 38 weeks for me... Hopefully baby won't come out at least till 39 weeks because by that time Hubby will be back from offshore.. tapi if dah ketentuanNya untuk keluar awal.. redha je lah.. Hopefully tak bad weather kat offshore.. kesian plak kat my hubby if bad weather minggu ni...
Nasib baik Iman tak banyak tanya pasal his ayah.. because we have already explained to him that Ayah kena pergi work kat laut for two weeks.

Yesterday went to Mas's house.. sepatutnya ala2 reunion with BBGS girls tp yg turn up smlm just me, Ein and Asyie.. but still ok gak sbb lame tak jumpe diaorg..
Dah lah tu... bila dah almost sampi umah Mas.. Iman muntah plak dalam keta.. waaa.. hbs my baju n his baju n seluar.. perghh.. Nsb baik ada bawa baju xtra Iman dalam bag except tak de seluar. While me luckly mmg dah standby bag utk dibawa ke hospital incase tetiba dah time to deliver... Smpi jer umah Mas mandi kan Iman and terpaksa pinjam seluar niece Mas. Stay at Mas's house till 11 pm. Then terus balik...

Kehilanganmu amat dirasai...

Today dah almost 2 weeks arwah my father-in-law passed away. Agak terasa kehilangan ayah (panggilan kepada my father-in-law). Arwah ayah meninggal disebabkan kanser. The growth of the cancer totally fast. Roughly setahun jugak lah kanser ni exist.
Eventhough baru tiga tahun lebih kenal ayah, but kehilangan ayah betul2 membuatkan me feel sedih. I will always remember ayah as seorang yg amat tegas but baik hati, caring... Still remember the first time when i went to my hubby's house selepas sesi perkenalan ayah&mak with my family, I didn't feel as a stranger at all. Ayah & mak treat me as their daughter. Tak rasa kekok pun nak bersembang ngan ayah & mak eventhough baru je kenal.

Sepanjang 3 tahun perkahwinan me, ayah & mak selalu jugak turun KL especially lepas ayah pencen dari pengetua. Kalau cuti sekolah mmg tak sah tak turun KL. Ayah totally closed with my son, Iman. Setiap kali we went back to kampung, Iman cepat rapat with ayah. Dengan nenek, lambat sikit. Yer lah, arwah ayah selalu bawa Iman pagi2 tengok ayam, beruk, jalan-jalan sekitar kg...

Sepanjang arwah ayah sakit, mak lah yang setia menjaga ayah. Dari sebelum ayah potong kaki kiri to reduced his pain smpi lah sehingga ayah meninggal dunia. I really salute mak for her patient and i do hope i can be isteri solehah like mak too.. Mak tak kisah pun tido kat hospital sepanjang ayah di hospital. Kami yang anak-anak ni yang risau akan kesihatan mak while taking care of ayah at hospital.

I really gonna miss ayah so much... He always give a good adviced bila berbual2 dengan ayah. I still can't forget how happy he was when he saw Iman at the hospital one week before he left all of us...

Ok, i'm gonna stop here .. :(

Semoga arwah ayah diletak dalam golongan orang-orang yg beriman... Al- Fatihah....